November 2, 2009

Monday

Dear Mommy,

This is my first real celebration of All Soul’s Day. Dati, pag November 1, umaga pa lang pupunta ka na sa Bustos tapos sa hapon ka na uuwi, pag may oras pa, sa Himlayan ka naman dadaan. Now, it’s up to us. Macky and I went to Baliuag as early as 7 am in the morning. We bought one large pan of Baked Mac at Greenwich, a bucket of chicken at Jollibee and some groceries at CVC. We also brought our Coke cooler with tube ice and water. Nagdala din kami ng mga upuan Ma. I also brought you and Daddy small pots of flowers. I hope you like them. We were all present - me, Macky, Itel, Nikko, Joshua and Marky. Naglagay din kami ng makulay na payong doon Ma. Nagtulos din kami ng kandila. We ate some baked mac upon arriving there. Then Tita Edna and the rest of your siblings came too. They brought pancit, palitao and ginataang pinipig. Na miss ka namin Ma. Kasi dati, ikaw ang pumupunta sa kanila pag Undas. Ngayon, ikaw naman ang binisita namin. We left at around 4pm kase nag-aya na si Josh. Sa Christmas, pupuntahan ka ulit namin Mommy. Please watch over us. We love you, Mommy and Daddy.

November 1, 2009
Sunday

Hello Mommy,

I miss you so much Ma. I carry a heavy heart every day again since Daddy died. I’m feeling the same thing again when we lost you. I find it hard to wake up and get up for work each day, knowing that both of you are gone. Ang hirap Ma. You told me before that we should not cry if we lost someone, that we should not be sad because that person is at peace now. I just can’t help it Ma. Every time I dream about you, you seem happy. I wish I’ll dream of Daddy too. Please watch over us every day Mommy and Daddy. We’ll pray for you always. We love you.

October 28, 2009

Dear Ma,

I never thought my heart would be crushed into pieces like this.  I’m sure you know what happened to Daddy. You were his whole life Ma, his happiness and his sole reason for being. It must really be painful for him to lose you. He passed away on October 21st.  I sometimes ask God why He took both of you away from us. Why so soon? And what have I done to deserve this? But then, I’ll never know the answers. Just when we were slowly picking up ourselves Ma, Daddy went and joined you. I have no complaints in terms of the responsibilities that are resting on my shoulders Ma. I’m sure God will always help us. I just miss you Mommy. We all do. I promise to take care of Joshua and Nikko for you. We’ll all help each other. Please look after Daddy, Ma. We’ll always remember the memories we shared together, when both of you were still here. You and Daddy are always in our hearts.

Mommy passed away on August 8, 2009

Daddy passed away on October 21, 2009

September 29, 2009
Tuesday

Dear Ma,

I dreamed of you last night. But I was unable to control my dreams again. I wonder what are you doing now Ma. Please guide me on what I need to do. I’m my siblings’ mother now Ma. I miss you a lot. I love you.

September 22, 2009

Wednesday

Hello Ma. I miss you pa din. Napagawa ko na yung tiles mo sa Himlayan. Ang ganda ng tombstone mo tsaka yung picture. As always. Ma, I’m praying for you. Wag ka nang magsisi ha? Don’t worry about us anymore. You told me that we, your children, are your priority. Sadly, mas inuna mo kami kesa sa sarili mo. Nalulungkot ako Ma, kasi hindi na kita makakausap kahit kailan. I can talk to you whenever I want, but it will never be the same when you were still here Ma.